Willing the G-d’s of Fate: Part deux


Happy Hanukkah to all you Jewbies out there!

For those of you that don’t know the story of Hanukkah, it’s really about faith. I was not raised very religously, so let me give you the Brooklyn skinny. Long, long ago there was this group of Jewish folk who were being persecuted. They took refuge in a temple. They had only one lamp, with oil for one night in it. Somehow, the lamp burned for eight days instead of one, and that’s how they knew G-d was with them, and G-d had their backs.

Last night my Italian-American husband and I lit our menorah to celebrate the first night of Hanukkah. Being married to a Jewish princess, my dear one is getting accustomed to all of these “unusual rituals”. Last year he walked uphill in the snow to surprise me with candles for our menorah. This year he made us a feast (of roast beast and mashed potatoes) and got me a glow in the dark dredel. 

So we lit our menorah to celebrate to first night of hanukkah. We said a prayer. We put the small photo we have of our little embies next to the candles in a makeshift alter. 

Hopeful, our G-d has our back. Hopefully She/He knows how very much we hope to add on to our family.

I know that everything happens in its own time. I do not know if our children will be born through our bodies, but I am assured in my heart that they WILL come in to our lives when the time is right.

As far as willing the G-ds of fate into reversing the cycle of devastating news after our past IUI’s and IVF’s I have decided to simplify my action plan, so I am not overwhelmed by ritual. The following is my abridged action plant for blood test day:

1. The Bear and I will sleep on opposite sides of the bed. That way I will truly be starting the day on the right foot.

2.I have been soliciting “good luck” charms from a few friends. I will bring these tolkens with me to the test. You can’t have too many wishes from friends.

3. I might still eat ice cream for breakfast.

4. I just surprised the Bear with two skybox tickets to this Sunday’s Patriot’s game (a gift from a dear friend) so I hope the great sex the night before the test is still a possibility….

5. Possibly flowers and words of affirmation left among post it notes by my desk…

6. Oh I almost forgot- LUCKY PANTIES. Thanks J!!!!!

Easy enough….

Any comments you leave for us will be added to our GOOD LUCK treasure trove!!!!!!

Whatever your faith, I wish you the BEST and I hope G-d had your back!!!!

Love, Shell

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3 responses to this post.

  1. Tickets to the Pats! Whoohoo! My hubby will be so jealous.

    Luck to you from the heart of our family.

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  2. Thanks for visiting and commenting on my blog. Great to read about Hanuka as I know zero about it!! All the best for your test!

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  3. Oh I liked the Hanukkah lesson as I wasn’t aware of much about these traditions, lighting the menorah in honour of your embies was really touching. I am really hoping you get to meet those embies again in the form of a healthy beta result really soon.
    xxx Thinking of you.

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