Club Bedd- Week 5- Love Beyond Measure


It’s hard to know what to wish for in moments like this. A healthy baby? Patience? Strength?

I am grateful that we have made it this far. Five weeks of bed rest on the high-risk floor of the hospital. Five weeks of nourishment and “natural” life support for our baby, before he enters the world. When I arrived, Jacob was just 28 weeks. Now he will be 33 on friday. We have passed many milestones, and welcome each new one as a little miracle.

Oh, Baby, you are loved beyond measure!

I never knew it was possible to love someone who is not even born yet. Someone who does not live amongst us. I guess it’s the closest thing to faith or G-d. Treasuring the unseen.

I have had such an amazing support system. My friends and family say that I have been so positive on this journey, and that it’s helping me and the baby, as well as my sweet husband. But, perhaps I have the room to be positive because I feel so supported and loved. I hope they know how grateful I am!

I also wanted to thank YOU, for reading this, for your prayers and emails to me. You have NO IDEA how much this has meant to me. I would like to write you all back personally when things quiet down here (and I will!) but for now, please accept my deepest gratitude.

We have been getting some pressure from the High Risk specialists to rush into an amnio to see if the rupture of my water has sealed up. Although it’s minimally risky, there is still some chance that the amnio could cause another rupture, or put me in pre-mature labor. Our birth plan with our Dr. was to do this test at 34 weeks, at which time they would deliver him (if my water is still broken) or send me home to go a few weeks more (if my water sealed) . We made a decision as a family to keep our original birth plan and test at 34 weeks, not before! The specialist was a pushy, cocky woman and I felt as if we needed to stand our ground. She cared little that there was any risk involved.

So I have opted to stay at Club Bedd for the additional time, rather than risk anything and test too early. Nine days of patience can mean boatloads to a baby who is growing every day inside me. We are doing this for HIM. It makes me happy to know that the Bear and I can whether these things together as a family.

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5 responses to this post.

  1. I think that is an excellent decision. Much as I loved the care I got there, some of the docs can be so clinical about everything, like there isn’t a *life* attached to the decisions at hand. Good for you for standing your ground. One more week may seem like a lifetime right now, but once you’re holding your sweet baby it will all fade away — I promise!

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  2. Good for you for sticking with your guns! I was one of the ones who got to “go home for a few weeks more” so I’m hoping hard for you that you get the same results! Although, from my perspective, it was odd to spend so much time with a “new” due date only to get sent home for a few more weeks and make it to “term”. Good luck!

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  3. You have such a great attitude which can be so difficult when you’ve been stuck in the hospital for so long! I think that was the hardest thing for me when we were stuck while pregnant with Brynn. I love that you’re sticking to what you think is right and that you’re hanging in there. Thinking of you often and hoping the days ahead just fly by. Keep your eyes on that great prize at the end of holding that little baby you’ve worked so hard for and this is so worth every moment!

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  4. I think you did the right thing. Keep hanging in there!

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  5. Posted by Betsy on July 2, 2010 at 9:14 pm

    So happy to read that you are at another week. What fantastic news. Your strength and conviction in everything you do shines through in all your posts.

    All the best to you.

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